Saturday, November 1, 2008

I thought it would get easier

So I thought it would get easier as it got closer to Daniel coming back home. Instead I feel like it has gotten worse. Maybe it's because I am so anxious...who knows!?! I find myself crying more about him being gone than when he first left. I hope every time he leaves it is not like this. I wonder every day, will it get easier? I am just ready to be back with him....

So much has been going on lately...I feel like I am going to crumble. I found out last week that I was being laid off due to the economy and real estate market not getting better. Daniel's paycheck can cover the bills, but my paycheck was for "fun" money and to put into savings. I find myself trying to find things to do around the house so I don't drive myself crazy these next 3 weeks until his graduation. Hopefully I will be able to find a job for a few months after his graduation until we move to Charleston for Power school.

Part of me is ready to pack up and move and another part of me is wanting to stay just a little bit longer. Daniel should find out tomorrow when we will move to least it's still in the South =]

I know I can get through this....I know things will get better. I just have to sit back, wait, and listen.