Saturday, November 1, 2008

I thought it would get easier

So I thought it would get easier as it got closer to Daniel coming back home. Instead I feel like it has gotten worse. Maybe it's because I am so anxious...who knows!?! I find myself crying more about him being gone than when he first left. I hope every time he leaves it is not like this. I wonder every day, will it get easier? I am just ready to be back with him....

So much has been going on lately...I feel like I am going to crumble. I found out last week that I was being laid off due to the economy and real estate market not getting better. Daniel's paycheck can cover the bills, but my paycheck was for "fun" money and to put into savings. I find myself trying to find things to do around the house so I don't drive myself crazy these next 3 weeks until his graduation. Hopefully I will be able to find a job for a few months after his graduation until we move to Charleston for Power school.

Part of me is ready to pack up and move and another part of me is wanting to stay just a little bit longer. Daniel should find out tomorrow when we will move to least it's still in the South =]

I know I can get through this....I know things will get better. I just have to sit back, wait, and listen.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Flu Season

So I can definitely tell that flu season is here. I have been saying for the past month that I was going to go get a flu shot. Of course, Mrs. Procrastination here has not done it! I started feeling bad a few days ago and called to schedule an appointment with the doctor and of course they are so busy I can't go until Tuesday! I was running fever today so I pretty much laid in bed watching movies and eating ice. I really hope I start feeling better soon!

Work has been so stressful...I am almost to the point where I am ready for me and Daniel to move as soon as he graduates. I feel like that is kinda running from my problems but it has been crazy! I just wish he was here! I guess being sick doesn't help my tollerance level!

On a brighter note...I think I may be flying for the first time in my life! SCARY!! I realized that Thanksgiving ran into Daniel's graduation week so I am going to drive to Kansas and spend Thanksgiving with the in-laws and then we will fly out Wednesday to go to Newport. I am so excited!!! I can't wait to visit with them and go see Daniel! He sent me an email today telling me that he got a 98 on one of his tests which doesn't suprise me...he always does well on tests. Hopefully our kids will get that from him!!! =]

Well, I think I hear cough syrup and my pillow calling my name!!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

It shouldn't suprise me!

So this week has been one of the worst weeks in a very long time, and started on Saturday. I was about to leave to go shopping for my last minute ritual whites for the weekend when my aunt called and told me that my Nannie (grandmother) passed out at my cousin's shower and hit her head extremely hard on the tile floor at the church. She said that they were bringing her to the hospital. Now, they live in an extremely small town and the local hospital is not the best place. A better hospital is in a city about 45 mins north of them and of course they had no available rooms because after the hurricanes it they had to evacuate patients from the costal areas and move them north and most of those patients still have not been able to go back home. So she had to stay at the hospital for 3 nights which was miserable for her. I had to call her every few mintues to keep her updated on the LSU game and the UGA vs. Bama game! She is doing MUCH better now and it at home which is a huge relief.

So just as I thought nothing could be worse than that....I am getting ready to go to work on Monday and I can not find my keys! So I do not panic just yet, grab the spare set, and run out the door so I would not be late for work. I searched the office just to make sure they were not there and of course they weren't. I searched my car and Daniel's car, still nowhere to be found. I have searched every inch of the house and I still can not find them!!! I do not understand how I could lose a set of keys that have like 8 key chains, plus 5 or 6 keys, and a card holder key chain!!!

Thankfully I received four letters from Daniel which have really helped put me in a better mood. It's times like this that I am going completely CrAzY that I am glad he is not here because I wouldn't want to stress him out. I miss him so much it's not even funny. This week has been one of the hardest since he has been gone...I swear it seems like there is always a week that make it seem worse than the one before it that was so horrible. When it rains, it pours!!! Only a little while longer until he will be back home...I can not wait!!!

So on a brighter note...I finished two of my books! I think I am starting to become a big fan of Nicholas Sparks. I am going to pick up his newest book that was released yesterday, today after I get off work. I dropped off Daniel's car at the handwash car place today and I wasn't prepared for the price, but they do a good job so it is worth it I guess. Hopefully the end of this week will start looking up soon!!!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Will it grow fast enough?

Now that fall is here and winter in nearing I can not help but excited. I love cold weather. Mainly for the reason I LOVE blankets (weird, I know). I almost always have to have a blanket covering me. I also love winter for the simple reason that I do not get out in the sun alot and the natural red in my hair comes out. I went and got my hair trimmed today and I curious to see if it can grow 6 or 7 more inches by the end of March. I can only hope and pray that it does because I have decided that I want to cut 10 or 12 inches again to send to locks of love (and also to have short hair again) =] I love my hair when it is long but it is so hard to keep up with! I have heard that horse shampoo will make your hair grow faster but the thought of putting horse shampoo in my hair freaks me out!

Hopefully I will get to talk to Daniel this Sunday. I really miss talking to him. I feel horrible because I haven't had/made time to write him letters. I just go and buy a cute card, fill up one side, and mail it off. Gosh, I am such a horrible navy wife! I finally found a framed collage of pictures of me and him and hung it up in the bedroom. I was planning of trying to find a plane ticket to fly to see him for the navy ball, but since it will be on a Wednesday, that will no longer happen =[

I didn't get much sleep last night because our dog decided he didn't want to stay on the bed. He would jump down, bark at the door, and then whine to get back on the bed. As soon as I would pick him up and put him back on the bed he would start all over again! So after about 5 times I just opened the door and let him roam from room to room. He keeps finding Daniel's socks and I have no idea where he is getting them!!!

I can not wait to watch Ugly Betty and Grey's tonight!!! I have been needing to finish the last 6 chapters of one of my books but of course... have been to busy watching tv! Ugh...I hate procrastination but it has unfortunately become a big part of my life since I turned 13. I will finish that book before Sunday!!!! =]

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

A Berry Good Day...again!

I have come to the conclusion that my husband is the most amazing man that God ever put on this earth! So today, I am at work, getting documents prepared for a closing and my boss comes in with yet ANOTHER package. I couldn't believe I was getting another package!! So I open it up and OMGsh there were a dozen chocolate covered HUGE strawberries! I didn't even know that he remembered that chocolate covered strawberries are my fav!! I am so ready for him to come home! I am glad that he has been spoiling me by sending me gifts, but deep down, I could careless about the gifts. The best gift ever would be to have him here with me. It's strange how these gifts can make it easier for one mintue and then hard the next. It's like they are even more of a reminder that he is not coming home for a while. I am still more than grateful and I love him with all of my heart! I wish I could call him to tell him THANK YOU and that I love him! He is so amazing, I can't help but smile every time I think about him and how wonderful he is!! =] What did I ever do to deserve him?

I can not wait to watch Dancing with the Stars tonight and CSI:NY! I have so much going on this fall and too many great shows to watch! All I can say is thank God for Ti-vo!!!!

I almost done reading a book a started last week. I should have been done already but I have been procrastinating! I have 6 chapters left and I need to finish all 6 by late tomorrow so I can start on another book. I have so much stuff that I have been occuping my time with that I am forgetting to do other important stuff. Hopefully after this weekend things should calm down.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

What more could I ask for?

Today has been one of the best days since Daniel has been gone. I woke up this morning 10 mins before I was supposed to leave the house so of course I didn't get to put any make-up on. I fixed my hair, brushed my teeth, threw on some clothes and ran out the door. When I got to work my boss told me "Cute Outfit!" And of course I relpied with "Yeah, too bad my face doesn't match it today!" So a few hours pass and the UPS guy walks in a says Hey I have a package for you! I open it up and it is 1 dozen beautiful long stem red roses, in a square vase, with chocolate candy!!! The card inside read...

"Hey beautiful lady! Figured I would send you something to show how much I really love you and miss you. Time will go by fast and we'll be together again soon. Miss you tons and hope this helps. Love, Daniel"

OMGsh are you freaking kidding me!?!? He is so amazing! I never would have expected to get flowers from him when he is on the other side of the country! I am so lucky to have married him! He is the best thing that has ever came into my life! I can not wait to see him!! I could not have asked for a better man to love!!!!

I watched the first episode of Dancing With the Stars last night! All I can say is WOW! This is going to be a great season. I really have no idea who I want to win. Misty May looked absolutely stunning! And Warren Sapp really impressed me. Cloris made me laugh so hard!!! That woman reminds me of my 76 year old great-grandmother!! I can not wait for tonight!! I also got to watch the season premiere of CSI: Miami which was also amazing!!! I love so many shows that come on in the fall! Dirty, Sexy, Money comes back on Oct. 1st and I can not wait!!!

Well I guess I need to get back to work, I will try and post again later tonight but I am sure I will probably be in front of the tv all night! =]

Sunday, September 21, 2008


I think last night was the first time since last football season that my heart skipped so many beats! I LOVE LSU football!!! My skin should have been purple and gold coming out of my mothers womb! It was so exciting to see the boys beat Auburn on THEIR home field!!!!!! =] Oh it was so bitter sweet! All though I am still celebrating I am sure that my heart will feel the same way atleast three more times! I am worried about our games against Georgia, Florida, & Alabama! Of course I think we can win, but it is the SEC and you never know so until each score board and each game reads LSU ahead and the time 4th quarter 0:00! GEAUX TIGERS!!!!!!!

I got to talk to Daniel today for about 25 minutes. I wasn't alot but it was great to hear his voice! He said he was glad LSU won because he knew there would be NO reason for me to be in a bad mood! He sounded like he was doing alot better than he was a few days ago! I am just so ready for him to come home! He sent me a card in the mail and it was the cutest thing I had ever seen in my life! With him being gone for so long, it has really brought out a different side of him, but a good side! I miss him so much!!!

So I got to clean out the room at my mom's that has alot of mine and Daniel's junk in there! The only thing that upset me is that I still can't find my camera!!! Daniel took it to Washington in June and I have not seen it since! I guess I am more upset about the memory card and pictures on the camera that did not get to get transfered to the computer more than I am upset about the camera missing! A camera can be replaced but the memory card with all the pictures can not!!!

Well, I guess I am going to call it a night! Another week of work starting tomorrow! Hopefully we will get lots of title orders in next week!!! =]

Friday, September 19, 2008

Sisterly Love

So as soon as I got home yesterday I called to find out how many new girls are my new sisters! I was so excited to find out that I am able to call 16 amazing women my new sisters!! The actives that are still in the chapter did an amazing job! I think this new pledge class is going to be one of the best Kappa Chi has ever seen! I can not wait to meet all these lovely new ladies and spend time with all of my sisters tonight!

Yesterday was like a breath of fresh air. Something came over me...I have no idea why but it was like I had received a makeover from the inside out. Maybe it was starting this blog, maybe it was starting to read 2 new books, maybe it was just a much needed change. Whatever the reason I am very happy for it. I talked to my best friend, Lillie for a good while yesterday. We have made a plan to start walking at the park after work since the weather has been extremely nice lately. There is nothing like a good "chat and excercise" with your bestie!

Of course the best part of my day is always when or if I get to talk to Daniel! Which I got to talk to him yesterday for about an hour after I got off work. I miss him more than ever and can not wait for him to come! I swear, sometimes it feels like he is NEVER going to come back home. We are still debating on whether or not I will go up there for the Navy Ball next month. I would LOVE to go but we really have to make sure that we will be able to afford two trips to the same place in less that two months! With plane ticket prices sky high and gas prices sky high...I may only be able to go to his graduation. I'm just ready to see him....I miss his hugs and kisses, falling asleep next to him in his arms, him waking me up in the mornings with a kiss and the first words out of his mouth, "I love you". I have actually started to miss picking up after him and telling him not to wash the dishes. I miss laying in the bed watching several movies a night. It's so different to hang out with our friends without him there since all of our friends are couples. I don't mind it, but it is just a big change. I went from seeing him everyday to getting to talk on the phone only once a week, if I am that lucky. I know that this is making me a stronger person and us a stronger couple. I am so proud of him and everything he has and will accomplish.

I am not sure if I am mentally ready for all of these big changes. I have lived in Louisiana my whole life pretty much and have never been more than 3 hours away from my family unless I was at a camp or on vacation. I can not imagine our future children not being able to spend holidays with their grandparents and great-grandparents like I did. I can remember being a kid and going to stay with my great aunt and great uncle in Lake Charles for 2 weeks every summer. It breaks my heart to think that my children may not have the chance to do those things. My great-grandmother is 78 years young and I pray that we will have our first child before she is called home. I have always looked forward to the possibilty of have that 5 generations and if that never happens of course I will be fine and move on with our life. I guess I have just not experienced enough change to be prepared. I am used to the same thing. I look forward to being able to see parts of the country and world that I have never seen and I will embrace those times but it will still be hard because most of the time it will just be me and our future children. I guess I can only put my faith in God and leave it up to him to help me cope with the changes that are forth coming.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

My First Blog!!! =]

So I am kinda new to blogging but I figured it is worth a shot! This could be a new way to help me cope with the new changes in my life and to just write (well type) down everything that is going through this crazy head of mine!

This is the first time Daniel has been gone and I think I am handling pretty well. It is still extremely hard, but in some strange way we are becoming even closer. It amazes me how I keep falling in love with him everyday, even when he is not here. When he calls and I answer and hear "hey ole lady" in that joking voice of makes me smile from ear to ear. I wonder how I ever got so lucky, or better yet how did he get so lucky ;-) He is supposed to come home before Christmas so hopefully that will stick...but you never know with the Navy!

We started talking today about going away for a weekend when he comes home. We have been looking at Bed and Breakfasts in Mississippi and a few in south Louisiana; but I think we will probably go to Mississippi. We are hoping to spent some "alone" quality time, turn the cell phones off, sleep in, and do some Christmas shopping. Of course the main thing is just to spend time with eachother in the room 90% of the time we are there :-D I am more than ready for him to come home. It has been hard going to sleep alone....waking up alone (well except for the dog at the foot of the bed). I just wish I could be with him. I wish I could make things a little easier for him, but I can't. He is such a strong person, but even strong people get down on themselves. When he called the other night to say that he would be coming home a month later than planned it took everything I had to not cry on the phone with him, listening to the sadness in his voice. I think that is the hardest part is trying to make him believe that I am the strong and hopeful one.

I really need to get back on my diet and start working out more often. I will do it...I just need a little more motivation. Too bad my motivation is on the other side of the country! He still encourages me, but it's not the same as him being here and picking at me.

I have found lots of things to occupy my time so that I am not constantly thinking about him being away. I love the fact that I am the Public Relations Advisor for my sorority. I love AOII and everything is stands for and I am so proud of my sisters at Kappa Chi Chapter. I went to Natchitoches last night for their Pref Tea and they did amazing! I am so proud of the girls and I can not wait for Bid Day tomorrow and just spending time with them this weekend. My sisters have truly helped me with Daniel being gone. It amazes me that even out of college they really are still there for me. Being there last night, joking around with some of the other alumnae, you would have thought we were back in college.

I really, truly, for the first time ever, enjoy my job! I work with a great group of people and love what I am doing. I think Daniel was definitely glad to hear that a week or two after I started the job. I have joined an online book club in hopes that it will one, occupy spare time; and two, open my opinions to different kinds of literature.

Well I think that is enough for my first blog!